Alesh1209’s Weblog

Shauna called this morning and asked if I wanted to met her and her daughter for lunch, so we got out of bed (it was 11:30) and got ready.  Went and had lunch with them and while we were out I changed his diaper and his umbelicus was gone.  My baby isn’t a newborn anymore….

We were running a little late, so we had to go directly to Jades school.  Jade on Friday made some comments to his teacher that he had an upset stomach and he was upset that he was going to see his mom that weekend.  Sean pulled Mrs. Wilke aside and addressed some concerns and wanted to know what they should do from here. I on the other hand, was entertained by Mom’s and teachers commenting on Vincent.  You know it is amazing how much conversations change when you have a baby.  Jades teacher from last year had no problem talking about her expiriences.  It is great. 

Sean and Mrs Wikie decided that Jade will talk to the school therapist everyother weekish if he is sad or just needs to talk.  Jade is having a really hard time adjusting to his new position on both sides of the families.  I over heard him talking to Sean today that he wished he and Vincent were twins.  Sean explained that they would need to be born at the same time, so that would mean he would be a baby.  From our understanding, he really didn’t spend a whole lot of time with his mom this last weekend and when they were together, it wasn’t quality time together.

Stephanie has Jade Halloween weekend, but Sean has Jade every year for Halloween and since this year it falls on a friday, Sean told Stephanie that she could take Jade.  This kinda made me sad since the last three years we have gone, but Sean really doesn’t want to spend time with her. 

My baby is no longer a newborn, He lost his little umblicus.

The Missionaries came over tonight and shared the message on Restoration.  I really enjoyed the time with them and listening to there message.  They talked to Sean and asked him a few questions and he asked a few.  They gave him a Book a Morman and then asked if he would be willing to pray about faith.  I am afraid to push him and I am not sure what his true feelings about the missionaries coming are, but I felt the spirit tonight.  I know that I haven’t been the most ideal member of the Church, but I do know the Church is true and I do have a testimony.  I have never been a preachy person and I don’t think that I would ever be that type of person.  I know that I need to set an example for my husband and my family.  It is VERY important for me to raise my children in the church and I know that the only way for that to happen is for me to go to church. 

The missionaries left a video for us to watch, so we are planning on watching it tomorrow.

Even though it is only 3:30, we have had a big day.  Vincent had his circumsicion this morning at 10:45.  When we got there, Sean took him into the room with the nurse and I sat in the waitting room.  Sean thought he would be able to handle it and we had some other questions (His tongue is white and I wanted to make sure he wasn’t geting thrush, He has a blown blood vessel in his left eye and he doesn’t like to open that eye and then his bellybutton smell.) 

Sean came into the waitting room and told me that he got the boot.  The Dr. HIGHLY recommended that he not be in there and even though she said there wouldn’t be a problem, it is always different seeing your baby like that.  So we waited until she came out and got us.

 He weighed today 10.8 and all of our worries were just worries.  His tongue looks ok, bellybutton she cleaned and said it is going to fall off today or tomorrow and his eye she just to watch it, but there isn’t anything to worry about.

Vincent had real tears streaming down his little face.  It was so sad. BUT not nearly as sad as when I needed to change his little diaper. Sean had to leave to get some paperwork done and Vincent and I took naps.  So when I needed to change the diaper, I was all alone.  One piece of the gauze came off, so I was going to put the vasaline on the tip of the penni that was hanging out and he hated it and screamed so much.  He kicked off the second piece of gauze and screamed harder.  I started to cry and wasn’t sure how to put on the vasaline.    When he was born, he had this lip pucker that just melts your heart, well he did that durning the diaper change. 

At 3:00 Sean and Jade got home.  I was surprised to see Sean because I thought he was going to be here around 5.  He told me that all of his paperwork has been processed and he is officaly a member of the 205th.  YEAHHHHHH…. Tomorrow we will find out his start date in Yakima.  That is the best news.  He probably will start on Monday, which will be hard, but so nice that he will be working.

Oh other cool news is i FIT…. In my pants I had prepregnancy.  I have a nuffin top, but the pants go on and zip up.  WOOOHOOOO.. I haven’t weighed my self, so I have no clue how much I have lost. 

Vincent also recieved his first THREE packages in the mail today.  Thank you Auntie Jennifer.  We love love love them. 

But Baby is starting to wake up, so I have to go.

I LOVE  reading her blogs.  I check everyday to see what she has posted.  I love the fact that I can know what is going on in her house and it saves time on the phone.  Life is hectic and there is always so much to talk about, the blogs help keep me informed what else is going on in their house.  It is great.  Thank you Jen for sharing your expiriences with us.  You children are adorable and amazing.  I love hearing all your crazy little stories.

And life couldn’t be greater.  I constantly told Sean that I couldn’t wait not to be pregnant anymore and he would always say, “Well then there would be a baby here..” Then I would stop and think and what I pictured it would be like, it was far far from it.  I couldn’t believe how natural it is to have the baby here.  Nothing seems inconvienent or bothersom.  Even the middle of the night feedings run pretty smoothly.   I must admit that I have a pretty laid back baby that doesn’t cry a whole lot.  I probably should knock on wood, because that could change.

Yesterday we went for a walk and tested out his new stroller Auntie Heather got.  He loves it.  He slept the entire walk.  After our walk, we stoped and looked at the ducks.  They loved the baby, we had to leave before we were surounded. 

Today we went to the dog park.  We started off with the stroller, but ended up being useless.  It went back to the car and baby was held the rest of the trip.  He slept almost the entire time. As we were leaving, I felt a warm spot on my shirt and looked down, He PEED on me.  I am not sure what happened, but we needed to leave. We left the dog park and got Jade and thank goodness.  Right when we pulled up Vincent let us know he was hungry.  I b.f. him while we waited and then we went home.

We have found things we like, his brown/blue polka dotted blanket, the nighties that don’t have feet, being swaddled and the pampers diapers.  We don’t like receiving blankets (there too small) being naked, cold wipes and sleeping alone. We are still confused about pacifers, being in the carseat.

Tomorrow is his big DR appointment where he is getting circumsicion.  I told sean that I wouldn’t be going to the appointment, but Sean thinks that he will need his mommy to hold him when he comes out of the room.  So, I  most likely will go and sit in the waitting room. 

Another thing is, his belly button STINKS really bad.  I got rubbing alchol for it, so we will see in the morning if that changes.  You can smell the thing just holding him.

When I first found out that I was pregnant I went to the dr and they calculated a due date based off the my last menstrual period.  According to that, his due date was September 22.  At 20w we had an ultra sound and at that, they said that Vincent was measuring smaller then he should of been, so they changed my due date to 3 October.

With ALL of that being said, I was devistated when the enitre month of September went by and no baby.  I couldn’t understand.  So I came to terms with the fact he wasn’t here and I couldn’t force my body to give birth. 

Then 3 October came and still no baby.  We went to the midwifes on the 7th and scheduled an induction.  Sean and I went to the hospital on Friday 10th at 8p.m. to start the induction.  I started to cry becuase I wanted so bad to have the whole rush to the hospital because I was in Labor expirience.  We got in our room and hooked up and they put the Cervidal in at 10p.m.  The cervidal is ment to soften the cervix to allow for dialation.  When we got there, I was 1cm and about 60% effaced (which always changed dependin on who checked me, come on people, this is your job) We went to sleep and at 10a.m. Cindy the midwife came in and checked my and took out the cervidal.  There wasn’t a ton of progress, just 1cm.  At 11a.m. I was hooked up to Pitocin and the contractions came so hard and right on top of each other.  The next four hours ran into each other and I can’t tell you exactly what happened, except I was in A LOT of pain.  They gave me some really stupid IV drug that didn’t do anything, nothing.  I threw up the entire time and couldn’t say anything.  The only thing I really remember is just holding on the side of the bed and just breathing through all the contractions.  Sean later told me that the monitor would go so high on a contraction it wouldn’t record it on the paper.  I was extremely sweaty and hot and decided to get in the tub.  I think that lasted an hour, I got out and told the nurse I needed something, This wasn’t fair for me to have to go through this induction with no EPI.  I saw the midwife standing outside the door, so I didn’t hold back my true thoughts, she was a Bitch…. Shortly after that, she came in and checked me.  I was 7cm and almost completely effaced. 

She then said that she would put me on the list for an EPI, hmm excuse me, put me on a list.  I don’t think so.  I asked the nurse to see if there was anything else that could be done and so she turned down the pitocin.  My contractions went from 1-2 mins to 4-5 minutes to buy some time.  They ordered the EPI I think around three and I FINALLY got one at about 6pm I was SOO mad.  But the Dr. came in and did his job and gave me a button for me to self administer.  Within a half an hour, I was able to talk to sean and actualy be aware of what was happening.

The midwife broke my water at 7p.m. and they increased the pitocin.  At 11p.m. I started to push.  I was so numb, tired, starving and shaking.  Sean was amazing the entire time.  He knew when to talk and when not to and what to say and just be there next to me.  While I was pushing he watched the entire thing. 

2 hours later, Vincents head finaly came out.  He was very big so they had to do some tugging to get him out.  He finaly came out and went directly to the warmers.  They were a little nervous that he was going to be diabetic becuase of the size.  There also was some merconuim in the water, so they needed to move fast.

Sean cut the cord twice and the second time he got part of it on him..eww.  I was confused on what was going on, but sean seemed like he knew, so I didn’t worry about it.  I had a second degree tear and needed some repair work.  I watched Sean look at our son and directed him when to take pictures, lol.. It took about 30 minutes to deliver the placenta and by that time Vincent had his first bath and was in my arms. 

It was absolutly amazing.  I couldn’t put into words how I felt that final push to get him out, hearing him cry that first time and then holding him.  I love my little boy so much.  My entire lifes purpose has changed.  I now am a mommy and wouldn’t change that for the world.  I am so happy and completely in love. 

My scheduled induction.  Tomorrow night I am going in to get my cervix rippened and then they are going to start the pitocin on Saturday morning.  I am going to stay at the hospital tomorrow night, so hopefully things move fast.  I think that my cervix has thinned out a little more the last few days because of all the stuff that is coming out.  I know TMI, but ahh, who cares.  Maybe tomorrow night when I get there, they won’t need to do the cervidil and they will just start the pitocin.  WIshful thinking, its ok.

Lets see what can I say?  Oh we came home from the test today and the dog ran out and sat on the porch…Which means she either did something wrong or had to go potty.  I got inside and looked on the floor.  She dimolished, distroyed my glasses.   I am so upset a couple of weeks ago she distroyed my cell phone.  The boys leave things out and she NEVER eats their things.  I can’t tell you how many shoes, bra’s, cell phone, glasses she has eatten of mine.  I don’t know what to do. 

There is a ton I could talk about, but everything is so depressing, there is no point to bother everyone with my problems.  You know, I was watching the news tonight and the guy said to watch SNL on Thursday, just because.  The news is so depressing, escpecaily with all the stock market problems, the presidental elections and all the rest of it. 

UGH I am going to sleep.  I probably won’t get much the next couple of nights.

Well first I will talk about last night.  I was completely uncomfortable all day and tried to get an appoinment/  I had one today, but….Yesterday would of been better.  So I called and they told me to go into L&D and see what they say.  My Midwife stripped my membranes and said that if I really wanted to,she would set me up for an induction.  Seeing how my body didn’t seem ready, I told her no and that I would talk to them today about what my overall options are.

At todays appointment Midman checked me again and there was no change.  So, we set up an induction for Saturday morning.  But on Friday night I have to go in and get my cervix rippened.  He gave me two options.  One was having a balloon inserted into my cervix with a cathader.  They would send me home and then I come back in the morning.  The second one is a cloth that is soaked in something that is placed in my cervix that also softens it.  Both are as effective, so it really didn’t matte which one I chose.  I decided on the second one since it seemed a little less invasive.

So my week looks like this.  I will go to work tomorrow and Thursday.  But on Thursday I will get off at 1 and then I have to go to MFM for monitoring to make sure that baby is ok to wait a couple of days.  If not, they will start it on Thursday.  Then I start my Maternity leave on Friday since that is the day of my induction.  Sean, Jade and I will get up and have breakfest and then we have planned a day of family activities.  Then it is BABY  TIME!!!!!

I was going to go into day and get my membranes striped, but when I called, we found out that they are only taking girls that are in labor today.  They are short on nurses and don’t have any open beds.  I asked my midwife what to do and she said walk, take a warm bath and some ambian.  My next appointment is Tuesday so we will see what happens.  I am not seeing the midwife that I really like, I am actualy seeing on that doesn’t believe in inducing. UGH.  This is so depressing. 

I don’t think he is posterior anymore becuase I am not feeling all the lower back pain I was feeling the other day (which is good),  I am depressed that the caster oil didn’t work.  I was expecting to be really sick or go into labor.  None of which happened. Well, I did use the bathroom a lot, but it wasn’t really bad…..anyways.

There is your update Jen.  Don’t worry, I understand why you can’t be here.  Maybe the next one we will live in california and there wouldn’t be any traveling for anyone.  I love ya too.. talk to you tomorrow.